Wednesday, September 16, 2009

Just putting it out there...

I went to Wicked last night. Brilliant. You know, I always miss performing. I miss the lights shining on you, the nasty make-up, the big hair, the applause, the standing ovations (I think people were probably too generous with me!), the anticipation and butterflies before opening night, the anticipation and sadness of closing night, the bonds of friendship you make with people spending countless hours rehearsing. I miss it all. I always do. But it comes back with a vengence when I go to a show. I can't even count how many times I teared up thinking about how much I miss it. I'm a goober. I guess that's what happens with old age. :) I wish I could have been better and gone further with musical theatre. Not that I don't absolutley love my life now. I just miss it. I wish I could have it all. A wonderful husband, wonderful, beautiful children, performing on stage, running whenever I feel like it. Do you ever miss the fun things you did before "real" life set in? I doubt I'm alone. I wish I knew then what know now. I think my New Year's resolutions this year will include auditioning for something. If I get it great, if not, at least I tried. Man, I just miss it!

8 comments:

Carrie said...

I think we all have things we wish we had more time to do. We all have dreams and goals we want to achieve. But what I've learned is that there is season for all things and it seems that when you're raising little ones, it's the season for raising little ones. I tell myself that there will be time someday for those things I really want to do. But right now I have to focus on my little ones. They're only little for a short time.

banananutmeg said...

balance. I'm obsessed with finding it lately. It seems I want so much for ME right now, and I also want so much for THEM and I can't have both...but if I don't do for ME, I don't have enough energy to give to them. Catch 22?

I say go for it. I made 3 resolutions this year for ME. So far, I have 2 down. I feel like i've blossomed this year (blossomed? what the heck? maybe I am old, who talks like that except old people) but I've also feel like my babies are growing so fast. In 10 years will I wish I had spent every moment and morsel of energy on them? savored it more? I don't know. Opposition in all things. Running when I feel like it! what would that be like? I didn't even know I liked running until 2 months ago. Now I'm addicted and can't go.

I think you should do SOME theatre. Do a show. Then take another break. Just get a good fix, and if you feel you have more time for it..do more. If not, take a break until you miss it like you miss it now. You are so talented. Your kids and Erik will be blessed to see you in action again.

jenae waters said...

I have felt this way just as of lately! I am missing dance SO much these days. I wish I could go and dance my heart out or perform, not that this body would allow it, but just being on the stage is an amazing feeling. You are not alone.

Bree said...

That's awesome...I thought I was the only one who tears up from missing it when I see performs! What's worse I even do it on TV on SYTYCD or dancing with the stars! You're not alone. Audition! It'd be fun for the kids to see (even if it was only in rehearsal)

The Wi Family said...

So I've never heard much about your "past life". I want to know everything and see lots of pictures!!!!

The Evans Family said...

You were amazing on stage! I could watch you for hours! I remember telling Kim Relyea when you got to go to NY. She said "looks like she's doing what we always wanted to do." At least you did it! Audition- you might as well try then you'll have no regrets.

Cassie said...

I would come to your show!!! Go girl, but I have to say...You wear me out. When do you sleep??? Keep it though, you are an inspiration.

Chandler said...

so, first of all, i'm so jealous that you saw wicked. i want to see it SO bad!
secondly, i totally agree with missing the stage. the rush. the jitters. the applause. everything about it is just always a blast! and it was fun when we were Laurie and Ado Annie together...not to mention out sweet ice cream intermission song. we were so cool!