Finally!

I haven't posted in a while (as you can see). I have been trying to find a happy medium with computer time lately. I tried not turning on the computer at all during the day because it seemed like when I did, my kids were lacking attention. But then at night when I had planned to at least check my email, I would forget or be too busy. Anyway, there's my explanation for lack of posting lately. I still haven't found that happy medium yet, but I'm workin' on it.

Yesterday was the anniversary of my very dear friend's passing. Her name was Natalie Joy Call, and she was such an amazing, talented, beautiful person. There was never a dull moment when you were with her. She was always the life of the party, and was always making someone laugh, or laughing herself. It has been 14 years since she died, but my heart is still so heavy. I miss her like crazy. I wish my kids could know her. I wish Brooklyn could know the girl who she shares her middle name with (Joy). I wish Erik could meet her and see how awesome she is. Natalie has 6 other amazing sisters (all equally hilarious as well!), and two handsome brothers. Our moms were roommates at BYU. Our families have always been close, like family, even when we don't see them for long amounts of time. Anyway, Natalie will always be missed. Every time I use Brooklyn's full name (usually when she's being naughty lol), I think of Natalie. And I think she's probably looking down at Brooklyn egging her on, and showing her just how to keep me on my toes. I was thinking yesterday (and telling a friend) about Natalie. I was with her the night before she died. I went to school the next day knowing I would probably get a phone call from my mom. As I left the office crying after hearing the news from my mom of her passing, I ran into another dear friend of mine, who just so happened to be in the hall-way at the same time. Ash, you really helped me that day. You probably don't know how much I needed you there at that time. So, I just wanted to say thanks! I am so thankful for dear friends, the ones that are still with me, and the ones that have gone on to live with our Heavenly Father. I can't wait to see you all again. I miss you tons Natalie!! Thanks for watching over us!! Love you